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Sunday, June 21, 2009

Brief Description

Pigs are very tolerant, kind and courteous with inner strength. They can be naive and too impulsive at times.

Positive Traits

sensible, sensual and sensitive, sweetly naive, caring, self-sacrificing, erudite, talented, open-handed, candid, outgoing, amusing, charitable, obliging, graciously hospitable and virtuous

Negative Traits

hot-tempered, pessimistic, outrageously epicurean, earthy to a fault, sardonic, snobbish, snide, authoritarian, competitive, know-it-all, stingy, victimized and sometimes downright criminally mad at the world

General Descriptionof All Pigs

"Its better to give than to receive" would probably be the Pig's motto. Pigs are more comfortable giving of their own time or attention than they are to ask others for it. They do not find asking for help an easy task and would rather carry the burden themselves. Pigs will do anything they can to maintain a sense of peace amongst family or friends. This can lead to a tendency to be taken advantage of, but Pigs basically forgive and forget everything. They are compassionate souls who simply want to keep the peace.

Detailed Descriptionof The Water Pig

Water Pigs go with the flow and usually trust people before they truly know them. This, of course, can get them into trouble because they are often too trusting for their own good. Water Pigs are quite easily influenced; yet, can be very persuasive when it comes to getting what they want. These people love parties and social situations and enjoy giving of themselves to help others.

I miss kave didi hahass & Elizebeth mei mei

naruAsuki_black24 screamed "JAY ROX!!" at 9:16 AM

Sunday, June 7, 2009

People expect that friendships will make them feel good all time.
When there is something about the friendship that invites complication,
friends might start to wonder whether the friendship is a good idea.
The truth is that if one expects a relationship to always be fun and lighthearted,
he is missing the point of friendship.
Everyone wants to hang around when there are good times to be had.
The real test of friendship is being there when the going gets tough.

Our friends are the ones that we expect will stand by us through thick and thin.
When are going through hard times,
we ask that they be "like a bridge over troubled waters".
If we cannot count on our friends to pull us through,
then who can we count on?

naruAsuki_black24 screamed "JAY ROX!!" at 7:58 AM

Monday, June 1, 2009

Is it true that if you are too good to people around you, they will take advantage on you?
Regardless of good or bad, they will always be bothering you with something and getting close to just to seek your attention and use you for that purpose.

Can money buy your heart?
When someone knows what you like to eat and drink, or simply buy something just to get you close to that person, do you think it will work between the two of you?

If someone loves you more than anything and you don’t love that person in fact you don’t even developed any feelings on that person, do you think it will work?

Basically I don’t believe in love.
What is the word LOVE really means?

To me it is just about the feelings that infested on that person or something that you really like.
For example, you just bought a brand new hand phone and you like the model, the functions etc.
You have been holding on to it for about few months or more than suddenly you saw something that looks better and even have more extra functions than your current hand phone. You had been thinking whether you want to get it or not. In other words you got feeling for that phone. When the day goes by the feeling for that current hand phone gradually fades away. You had been eyeing on that new hand phone and when the time comes you get it and the old hand phone you either keep it or you do something about it but you will definitely leave the phone unattended.

Do you understand what I am getting at and does it make sense.
I mean it is just my point of view that I am looking at the whole situation and I find that it is all about the feelings. If it stays and you continue to stable it will last but if you cannot than it will gradually fades away and thus putting you in a dilemma position.

I always said that I will always love my girlfriend and my love for her will never dies but sometimes I asked myself, is it true?
Am I cheating myself by saying this?
Or deceiving myself?

But one thing I can assure that I still have feelings for my girlfriend.
She still lives in my heart and there is no room for other girls.

I am afraid to be loved or go into another relationship.
Am I too overprotective to myself?
I know to myself, no other girls can ever replace her.
She is very special and precious to me but I still cannot bring myself to take care of her.
She had never complained to me when she is with me for the past 4years.
She is not with me now and she will never be with me but our memories will always stays with me and I will treasure it.

I don’t blame her and I have never hated her.
I am regretting for letting her go but I will never get back to her. It is not because I don’t have feelings for her but I don’t want to hurt her anymore.
Most of the times I am selfish towards her but I hope by letting her go she will find her own happiness gradually. I am sorry girl.
Both of us know that this is the best solution.

Now, after going through a lot, I have decided to turn bisexual.
Although I still have feelings for girls I am avoiding myself to be too close to girls.
In fact sometimes I feel weird when a girl touches me.

Am I really turning gay?

I asked myself sometimes, whether I really want guys or girls.
But now I guess I know what I really want.
I want a guy to love me and take care of me.
I want to fuck around with guys and I am already started fucking around with guys because guys are BASTARDS including myself.
Not all the guys are bastards, but to whom I have met and meeting soon.
They are everywhere and once they are hook, it is time for payback.
I don’t want to hurt another girl and I know how it feels to be being hurt.
The feeling is extremely painful.
Till today, I still don’t know what I really want.
One thing I know that I will never ever fall in Love again.
I am afraid to be hurt and don’t wish to hurt another party.

I am not bothered if my friends or whoever never accepts me for what I am
Now because I don’t live for others but I live for myself.
It is my life and only one person has the right to end it.

The one who created me

God

And to those who really used me for money purposed or other thing,
You will not be punished by me, I will not curse you or whatsoever but you will face the consequences sooner or later.
Most of you know where my weak point lies and I will not change it because it born with me but I will avoid those bastards and bitches who are trying to get close to me.
I will avoid those morons.

naruAsuki_black24 screamed "JAY ROX!!" at 7:38 PM

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

My dearest beloved boys..

I am sorry that I have to send you guys away.

I have no choice but I have to let u guys go.

I cant bear to part with you, both.

You guys were my precious and beloved boys.

I treat you guys like my own kids

Played boisterously and almost got beaten by Hiroki.

Yutaki will always try to support me when Hiroki tries to attack me.. haha..

That was very fun though, watched you guys fight and playing together.

I dont know which one of you bite my underwear till it got few holes in it ;)

Naughty boys but at times u guys are well behaved.

Hiroki and Yutaki

Both of you gave me the loved in some ways,

listen to my complains etc...

Whenever I am feeling down I will bring you guys down and take a stroll along the big wide drain

watched you guys eating snails(disgusting), barking at strangers, run here and there, bite each other and got into fight and for that both of you will get beaten up by me... haiz

You guys were special to me.

Since the day I let go both of you at east coast park, I cant stop thinking about both of you.

The memories will always stay with me and you guys will always stays in my heart.

I am hoping and wishing both you, wherever you boys are.. please take really good care of yourselves and dont be naughty.

Hiroki, I know you can take care of yourself because I got confident in you.

You are like "ah beng" hate others beating you but you gotta take care of Yutaki because he is very sensible and stubborn. I believe you guys are always together wherever you go.

I have seen you boys grow and know what you guys likes and dislikes.

Now both of are freed to explore and survive on you own.

I have always prayed for both of ya safety.

Now whenever I go east coast, I am hoping to see you guys but I am disappointed because I cant see you guys around. I guess both of you must have gone somewhere further away from where I have left you guys. I dont feel good whenever am at east coast because I feel guilty.

Hope you guys will forgive me for letting you guys go.

I wanna say from my bottom of my heart,

I will always love you guys and missing you everyday..

You guys are my bestfriends.

During this short period of time, I have develope the friendship from both of you deeply.

Love you boys always

naruAsuki_black24 screamed "JAY ROX!!" at 5:00 PM